For the bad days, and the good things.

Every single day I struggle to remind myself of why I love my life, why I am happy and of what lies ahead for me. It becomes especially hard in the stressful times, such as the last exams before I leave high school, and when friends basically suck, and even worse when you're sick during it all, nobody seems to notice or care, and you are reminded of your every flaw constantly, all while being home alone curled up on the lounge with a dodgy pink blanket playing the Sims because none of your friends seem to care enough to drop by or give you a call and see how you're feeling...

Oh dear, that was a tangent, but yes, that's an accurate description of my life since school ended last week.

And since I've been so down, and eating a lot to compensate for the lack of people around, I thought I'd make a self encouragement post, not only for myself, but for anyone who is feeling a little down. So here goes: in the form of a list, the top 5 ways I try to boost my mood.

1. Every day, especially on the days I have to force myself to study, I think about the end result. The harder I work for what I want, the less other people's opinions and judgments matter, and the better my results will be. This works whether it's for study, work or even personal achievements. Stop thinking about what other people think or want from you and focus on what matters to YOU! It'll make it a lot easier.
2. I don't stress about results, because I can work with whatever I get, and I can't change how well I did. So what I'm saying is, become adaptable to what you're achieving, what's going on around you and focused on improving for the next step.
3. No matter how crap everyone around me is being, especially friends, I constantly have to remind myself that they are replaceable, even the ones that seem to have been around for a long time. So instead of focusing my energy on keeping my friends happy, I focus on keeping me happy, and on keeping the family I have happy, because me and my family can't change, friends can.
4. Always take time to relax! I can't stress how important this one is. I try to take time every single day to focus on me. Cooking dinner, watching a favourite TV show or movie, or talking to someone about something that matters.
5. Keep your Sims happy... Or you know, if you don't play Sims, remember to look after yourself the way you do them. Keep up with your basic needs, but don't forget to treat yourself sometimes. Chocolate releases endorphins, so use that excuse when you want some.

I'm pretty sure I just got really off topic in that list, but they are the things I do regularly when I feel the mood coming on that leads to unexpected crying in the shower or late at night for no real reason, or when I feel like everyone around me just plain sucks and I need to cry on behalf of their sucky-ness. Or you generally just have crappy friends like me, and would rather be alone and content than angered by their stupidity, hypocrisy, arrogance and down right crappy personalities.


Right now, I'm going to finish watching Good News World, feel good about myself and sleep until around 10am if not later, just because I can on a Tuesday, or any day now, and then play the Sims until I can hear out of my right ear, not that anyone cares about how sick I am, not even the people I call my best friends. But that's fine, when I get cancer, I'll be sure not to tell them so they don't have to feel bad about not giving a shit about me.


I was going to sign off with an 'I'll be out and about until next time' and then I realised that more realistically, I should sign off with this:


I'll be in bed, playing Sims like a friendless loser, suffering from a really bad flu and hoping I can be bothered to wash my hair in the morning, until next time, have a better day... week... life than me.