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Having spent the last 4 days in bed with a nasty dose of some infectious germs taking over my body, I had plenty of time to think about my undecided future.

Over the last few years I have had some great ideas about what to do with my future, mostly coinciding with whatever phase I was in the midst of at the time.

When I went through my painting every week phase I wanted to be either an artist or a tattooist. After I got a set of lip piercings I wanted to be a tattooist/piercer. When I was doing really well in science in year 10, I wanted to study biology. This was then followed by lawyer, writer, illustrator, audio technician, architect, engineer, public servant, translator, embassy official travel agent physicist and most recently, permanent student.

I clearly follow no patterns when deciding my future, but two things are clear. I like money, and I like the creative industries. So instead of actually picking a career, I've gone with possibly the most logical thing so far: do whatever I get accepted to do after making various job and education applications. So far the only things I've applied for are a course in tourism and a job with the public service.

There are few things I am sure about when it comes to my future, I know only that I want to travel, speak many languages and live mostly in either Helsinki or Baltimore, or both equally. I know nothing about what I want in relationships, children or career. I don't know what kind of car I want, or even what colour hair I would like to have a week from now.

And so within the next 2 months the journey begins. What will I end up doing? Where will I end up? Will life go well, and the few plans I have go the way I intend?

One thing is for sure, you can't hide from life. The only thing you can do is take it head first, because as they say, nobody makes it out alive.